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maka bad trip

ingnan ba naman kag makabadtrip kung makadawat siya'g text nako! amay!

well, atleast i've gone through the cycle of being sad, depressed, hurt and just last night, i got sooo mad at him! POTA!

pissed off! gihilasan ko! mura man ug kinsa!

shit!

siya ang makabadtrip!

hilas!


*pero mas makabad trip kay palangga gihapon sa tinud-anay lang!

swimming

i haven't blogged for a long time (for reference, pls. check the date of the post below this one). anyway, i just thought of blogging tonight coz i just had a crazy, weird, hilariously complicated, extremely funny, and ab-working, throat scratching experience watching an unknown film entitled "OUT AT THE WEDDING". It's a complicated comic gay story (let's just leave it like that, complicated). Anyway, during the confrontation scene where the lead actress tries to explain herself to her fiance she gives out this interesting line: "I spin my own stories, I create my own fairytales....I am an animated girl who lost her mother and now found her prince charming... and I am just afraid of my story ending." it was just beautiful. it doesn't completely relate to me coz first of all my mom is still very much alive and beautiful, plus i have just lost my prince charming....but what fits to most of us, especially to my friends, is the part that we spin our own stories, and we try to create our own fairytales... and as our story follows through, we try to hold back or give it too much of ourselves, because of anxiety that someday this beautiful love story would end...thus the questions: i do not know if it would end up happy or sad or traumatic or tragic? would it be me who would end it or my partner?

now, i'm still slightly deranged that my story has a part two. my sad ending of the prince turning back to a frog after his "love" got confused and lost in the woods would somehow develop into a story wherein "love" would reach a signage that would lead him back to the frog and they'd kiss again. aawww.. so cheesy, mushy, corny and o.a.... i know. however, right now i have slightly recovered from my long time of sorrow. i am still in pain, i must admit but i have learned how to walk again with a smile and even dance to the beat of my music. i love my love... i still do. and as i continue on loving, i now go back swimming to the pond where life goes on for everyone else.

realizations from 007 to obama

i just came from M.O.R'S free movie screening of QUANTUM OF SOLACE -007 @ SM City Davao and i have realized some tiny little bit thoughts... the loss of your love could unconsciously turn you into a cold-hearted killer...however, you have to keep your cool and be professional in your job... sometimes, strangers can help you face your problem...however, at the end of the day its you who should face and solve it... BUT MY FAVORITE PART OF THE MOVIE WAS THE ENDING:
M: I NEED YOU BACK BOND.
BOND: I NEVER LEFT!
(ayaw na react)

anyway, i wasn't able to catch the live broadcast of OBAMA'S ACCEPTANCE SPEECH AS THE PRESIDENT ELECT OF THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA... so, i checked it out in youtube and as i listened to his speech, i can't help but think at the back of my mind would we ever have a leader who would speak like obama? from our history lessons, we know that marcos did. let's just not dwell on the problems marcos left us. let's try to focus on how a leader could push the spirits of a depressed nation into high heavens with words that could inspire you to work your ass out for your family, for yourself, and most especially for your nation. i've only felt this kind of passion and fervor for this nation when i took my stand and walked the streets of davao praying that ERAP should be impeached. however, years after, our nation is still in deep shit. i think that GMA is doing her job and she's doing (i hope) the best that she can... but with all the issues and scandals brought upon her administration, your trust and confidence on her is challenged. so, i just hope that OBAMA would live up to his words and would be blessed by the ALMIGHTY that he'd be able to consistently deliver to his people... and I PRAY that as 2010 approaches, the minds and the hearts of every presidentiable candidate would be inspired by the great milestone that had happened in USA--having the first black american president--and for our version they should turn themselves into being the first FILIPINO who would be patriotic enough to believe in all of us as a people and would work with us as siblings for our mother, PILIPINAS.

hubag nga dalunggan

since the day we broke up, i have entertained morbid and violent thoughts which i could do to myself. ofcourse, it would be out of my utter emotional depression which is still, upto now, difficult to handle. however, my angel whispered to my ear a very good suggestion... "pagpa-pierce na lang". bitaw, why not?!

a few lonely days after, i got my ears pierced. still on the left ear: one beside my old piercing and one on the upper cartilage part of the ear. but it disappointed me. it didn't hurt! it was supposed to redirect my emotional pain towards physical pain...it was done for a purpose! since, there was nothing i could do i just left it as it was.

then, this morning, something inside made me remove my "bullet" earrings (mao to ang gipambuslot sa ako gamit ang baril so "bullet" ra jud) before i took a shower. when i took them off, i realized that it was still fresh coz it has only been more or less a week since my "operation". so, right after i took a bath, i wore them again. i had to ask my mom to help me wear the one on the cartilage area coz the hole must have closed a bit and i couldn't find its exit point. my mom then applied alcohol on it right after.

so, i went on with the day. then slowly, i felt it sting a bit. i just thot it needed alcohol. so i poured alcohol on the wound area. ug karon nga naka-uli nako, when i looked at the mirror, hubag na xa. so, hubag ang akong left nga dalunggan karon... ang nihubag nga part, katong sa cartilage area.

atleast, sadya lang nga ang akong plano, nahitabo gyud.... nisakit na gyud ang akong relatively new piercings. hurrah! but ofcourse, i hope this would not require another operation. hehehe....