green fields

It's 2009 and I just can't help but reminisce on some good memories of dreams I once had while I still had my lover. His family were farmers and he occasionally goes back to there place. And I'd imagined what if it would all work out for us, then I could romantically spend time with him with his family.
Last week, during this trip I had with my family for my younger brother's science project, I "accidentally" came upon this greenery... the fresh air and the vibrant colors of nature almost brought tears to my eyes... heck! I even had an upclose experience with a carabao. While I was watching all of these majestic sights I reconciled myself with the fact that these might just remain as a buried dream now that it's been 3 months since our break up. Now its 2-0-0-9 and it's time to stand up and turn my back. But still i hope someday, someone could pull me back to somewhere that would resemble the simplicity of life and love. I hope by then I would not be too much and that I'd be ready to face another possible hurt and depression in my life. God bless 2-0-0-9.

MODE: FUNCTIONAL

I was able to pass 5 scripts: 3 for one show and 2 for the other show. And I was able to that within half a day. I started flexing and stretching my neurons at 5am... fighting the biting cold of the early morning. And then there I started working. After one script I went back to bed to dream. Yes! To actually dream what dialogues to use or how my thoughts would flow for the next script which had to follow a different theme. And it did work. After my nap, I pressed on for the next. It became a funny routine. My dreams went crazier. One even looked like a movie or something. Haha! This is what I get after a day of bumming. A day to wallow the pain and misery of life and enjoy the comfort of sickness. It was a beautiful day yesterday and it ended beautifully with tears streaming down my cheeks. Like I was watching my own sorrow on stage.
However, today I am a lively bee. I went to work in the afternoon and was able to deliver what I had to give. Plus, I had free dinner! Although, I felt quite dizzy after walking around. Thankfully, I didn't faint at PENONG'S.
Finally, here at home, I was able to make one more INTRO... just an intro... for the script that's going to be used for tomorrow's shoot. And after all of these, I got lucky! My brother introduced me to this website where you download themes for your phone and i got one of my favorite NARUTO CHARACTERS-SHIKAMARU- A BRILLIANT BUM, AS A MATTER OF FACT. The good thing doesn't end there. I got the biggest surprise that along with the theme was the message alert tone with NARUTO'S VOICE SAYING: "KAGEBUNSHIN NO JUTSU!"....YEAH! IT ROCKS!
Now, I have to sleep... goodnight.

finally, I AM SICK!

last week, i went to the doctor for a check-up coz i had bad cough. She told me to have an x-ray. The result was, I only had bronchitis. So, i had to take unasyn and robitussin. For a few days, i had bad stomach. And just the other night, i had chills. Till yesterday whole day. I wasn't able to join our department christmas party. And now, i am absent from work coz if i would expose myself again to work, i might not be able to recuperate and worse thing would be, i wouldn't be able to join our taping on Sunday which is my main program.
But thank God I am finally sick. It's been a long time since I've wanted to stay at home and just stay in bed. After all the shit that I've been through! Pressure at work, self-imposed pressure for work, sudden withdrawal from smoking....and ofcourse, the break up! I've been in deep shit for two months now. And I am just glad that finally, I AM SICK! I even wanted to be hospitalized but financial constraints limits me to bed rest. But either way, i'm just uber happy that i have time to be at peace for just a day.

withdrawal

no more cigs for me...